But she didnt know that the audience cheered another boxer the next evening and a year later nobody thought about her anymore.Nobody loved her and she was loved by nobody. Somebody read her some literature. But he didnt teach her love cause he didnt know love himself.
When she was laying down handicaped in her hospital bed she thought that she was dead. But in fact it was the only time when she had the chance to become alive. But she didnt know and nobody told her.
There she had the chance to forget about the physical and awake her mind. Instead she killed her body and thereby killed her mind, too.
She was full of self-pity and fear that people would forget about her. And she was right. 'Cause the qualities that she had gained in the gym were exchangable.
She never discovered the human inside herself. And her trainer neither. She never discovered the love inside herself. Neither did her trainer.
She never realized that there was a flower growing in the sun and never let her thoughts strive in the clouds of the Himalaya. She never saw a child dying in Africa and never smiled at the soul of her clients in the restaurant.
She defined her happiness by the physical qualities that she had gained in the gym.She never discovered the beauty within her physical body.
And never realized that some people smiled at her soul. Mother Theresa was in the restaurant more than once and she didn't realize.
The "Million Dollar Baby" had a dream to become someone famous and when she had almost succeeded she had an accident and had to realize that she could not HAVE her dream fullfilled anymore.
So she decided to die cause she couldn't HAVE anymore, she would just be able to BE.
But she wasn't satisfied with just BEING.
She didnt love herself enough for just BEING,
she thought that without HAVING, life was not worth living.
